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Beating the Post-Holiday Blues: A Mindful Approach for Gay Men

Beating the Post-Holiday Blues: A Mindful Approach for Gay Men
 

The holiday season often brings a whirlwind of excitement—joyful gatherings, meaningful connections, and perhaps a few too many indulgences. Yet when January arrives, many find themselves feeling unexpectedly low. The shift from festive celebration to quiet routine can be jarring, giving rise to what is often called Blue Monday—the third Monday of January, widely considered the saddest day of the year.

From a psychological perspective, this “blue” feeling is understandable. The weather is cold and gray, financial pressures may surface from December’s generosity, and New Year’s resolutions can already feel like distant memories. For gay men, additional factors such as social isolation, strained family relationships, or unspoken expectations around appearance and success can deepen the emotional dip.

As a therapist, I encourage clients to approach this season with self-compassion and mindful curiosity. Through the lenses of Narrative Therapy, Cognitive Behavioral Therapy (CBT), Positive Psychology, and Mindfulness, there are many ways to rewrite the story of Blue Monday into one of growth, connection, and renewal.

1. Plan Something to Look Forward To

Narrative Therapy reminds us that life is made up of many stories—not just the one that says “I feel stuck and sad.” Planning something enjoyable, even months in advance, invites a new story of hope and anticipation. Research consistently shows that having future plans enhances happiness and motivation.

You do not need an extravagant trip. Consider a weekend getaway with a partner or close friend, or even a solo retreat to recharge. Each January, I like to encourage my clients to make it a tradition—use Blue Monday as a cue to plan your next adventure.

2. Create Connection Through Joy

Positive Psychology emphasizes that joy and gratitude are powerful antidotes to sadness. You can intentionally cultivate both by organizing a small “Blue Monday” gathering. Invite friends to wear blue, serve blue-themed drinks or snacks, and laugh about the shared experience of post-holiday fatigue.

For gay men, especially those who may not have traditional family support, chosen family plays a vital role in emotional well-being. Sharing laughter, warmth, and community helps reframe loneliness into belonging.

3. Engage Your Mind and Body with a New Hobby

From a CBT perspective, engaging in pleasurable and meaningful activities interrupts cycles of negative thinking. Hobbies stimulate the brain, reduce stress, and increase self-esteem. Learning something new—a cooking class, yoga, or even painting—can shift focus from “what is missing” to “what is growing.”

The goal is not perfection but presence. Through mindfulness, you can fully experience the process of learning, appreciating the moment rather than judging yourself by the outcome.

4. Reach Out for Support

Sometimes, what feels like a seasonal dip may actually signal something deeper—such as depression, anxiety, or Seasonal Affective Disorder. These conditions are treatable, and reaching out for help is an act of strength, not weakness.

If you notice ongoing sadness, fatigue, or disconnection, I encourage you to talk with a mental health professional. As a gay man and therapist, I understand how layered these experiences can be—balancing identity, community expectations, and personal healing. Together, we can explore practical tools to help you restore balance, rewrite the story of your year, and cultivate hope beyond the holidays.

If you would like to explore therapy with me, I welcome you to reach out. Together, we can transform this Blue Monday into the beginning of a brighter, more intentional year.

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When Sex Feels Out of Control: Compulsive Sexual Behavior

When Sex Feels Out of Control

Has sex begun to feel like it is running your life rather than enriching it? Not in a pleasurable or affirming way, but in a way that feels intrusive, exhausting, or distressing. You may find sexual thoughts showing up uninvited, even in public or professional settings. You may know certain behaviors do not align with your values, yet still feel pulled toward them. Guilt, fear, and a sense of being out of control often follow, and the cycle repeats.

Many gay men carry additional layers of shame around sexuality due to early messages about being “too much,” “not enough,” or somehow wrong for their desires. When those narratives go unexamined, sexual behavior can become a way to cope, escape, or self-soothe rather than a source of genuine connection and pleasure. I want you to know that struggling in this way does not mean something is wrong with you.

Understanding Compulsive Sexual Behavior

Compulsive sexual behavior is often misunderstood and deeply stigmatized. Many of the men I work with feel isolated or afraid to ask for help, worried they will be judged or misunderstood. From a therapeutic perspective, this is not about moral failure or lack of willpower. Like other behavioral health concerns, compulsive sexual behavior deserves compassion, curiosity, and skilled support.

From a narrative therapy lens, I view compulsive sexual behavior not as who you are, but as something that has developed in response to life experiences, stress, trauma, or unmet emotional needs. We work together to separate you from the problem and explore the story of how it took hold, while also identifying the parts of you that have been trying to survive, cope, or feel worthy.

Signs That Sex May Be Taking Over

This is not about how often you have sex or what your sexual interests are. It is about the sense of control and the impact on your well-being. Common signs include:

  • Persistent or intrusive sexual thoughts or urges that feel difficult to manage

  • Repeated sexual behaviors despite negative consequences

  • Using sex to cope with stress, anxiety, loneliness, or past trauma

  • Feeling guilt, shame, or regret afterward, followed by a return to the same patterns

  • Noticing strain in relationships, work, emotional health, or self-worth

If any of this resonates, it does not mean you are broken. It means something in your life is asking for attention and care.

How I Help Through a Sex Positive Perspective

In my work as a therapist, I provide a safe, affirming, and nonjudgmental space for gay men to explore the emotional drivers beneath compulsive sexual behavior. Using cognitive behavioral therapy, we identify thought patterns that fuel urges, shame, and impulsivity, and we work on building healthier, more grounded responses. Through mindfulness, I help you learn how to notice urges without acting on them automatically, creating space for choice rather than reaction.

Positive psychology allows us to focus not only on reducing distress, but also on strengthening self-compassion, resilience, values, and authentic self-worth. We identify what a meaningful and fulfilling sexual and emotional life looks like for you, not based on external expectations, but on your own values. When relevant, we also explore attachment wounds, trauma, anxiety, depression, or relationship patterns that may be contributing to the cycle, and we work toward repair and growth.

Taking the First Step Toward Change

You do not have to struggle in silence or remain stuck in patterns that no longer serve you. Change is possible, and healing does not require shame or punishment. It requires understanding, support, and a willingness to rewrite the story you tell about yourself.

I work with gay men who want greater self-control, self-acceptance, and a healthier relationship with their sexuality. If you are ready to take the first step, I invite you to reach out. Together, we can move toward clarity, balance, and a more compassionate relationship with yourself.

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Supporting a Loved One in Crisis During the Holidays

Supporting a Loved One in Crisis During the Holidays

Watching someone you care about spiral into self-destructive behavior can feel heartbreaking, especially when you see their pain clearly, yet they remain unaware or in denial. Around the holidays, when connection, love, and togetherness are emphasized, this experience can feel even heavier. You may want to help but feel unsure how to intervene without pushing them further away. I want to remind you that while you cannot control another person’s choices, you can take mindful, compassionate steps toward creating space for healing and support.

Understanding What an Intervention Is

An intervention is a structured, intentional meeting where friends, family, and sometimes coworkers or community members gather to express concern for a loved one struggling with addiction or self-destructive behavior. It is not about blame or confrontation—it is about connection, accountability, and offering a lifeline toward change.

As a mental health professional, I often help families prepare for these emotionally charged moments. A trained interventionist guides the process to ensure that each person’s voice is heard while maintaining a calm, respectful environment. The goal is not to shame or coerce, but to gently invite the person to accept treatment and begin a new chapter of recovery.

When Is It Time for an Intervention?

Recognizing when it is time to intervene can be deeply challenging. Loved ones often wrestle with guilt, fear, and uncertainty—especially during the holiday season, when hope and despair can exist side by side.

From a cognitive-behavioral perspective, denial and avoidance are common defense mechanisms in addiction. The individual may rationalize or minimize their behavior to reduce emotional discomfort, while loved ones may delay action in hopes that things will improve on their own. However, postponing these conversations can prolong suffering.

In my experience, families usually “just know” when it is time. Perhaps there has been a recent DUI, a job loss, or a decline in health. Perhaps relationships are fracturing under the strain. It is rarely a single moment that signals readiness, but rather an accumulation of concern that becomes impossible to ignore.

The most effective time to act is often sooner rather than later. Waiting for a loved one to “hit rock bottom” may lead to irreversible harm. Mindfulness teaches us to meet the moment as it is—to respond to what is happening now, with clarity and compassion, rather than waiting for the perfect conditions.

Finding Meaning and Hope in the Process

Through the lens of narrative therapy, I view each person’s struggle not as a moral failing, but as a story still being written. The addiction or self-destructive behavior is not the entirety of who they are—it is one chapter in a much larger life narrative that can be reauthored with support, love, and purpose.

As family and friends, your role is not to rewrite their story for them, but to hold space for the possibility of change. By grounding yourself in mindfulness—focusing on your breath, calming your body, and staying present—you can speak from a place of compassion rather than fear. Positive psychology reminds us that hope, empathy, and connection are among the most powerful catalysts for recovery.

Taking the Next Step

If you believe it may be time to hold an intervention, please know that you do not have to navigate this process alone. I offer professional guidance to help families plan and conduct interventions that are safe, compassionate, and effective. Together, we can create a path forward rooted in understanding, respect, and care.

This holiday season, while others are celebrating, remember that extending compassion to a struggling loved one is one of the most meaningful gifts you can give. It is an act of courage, love, and hope—for them and for yourself.

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Mindful Drinking During the Holidays

Mindful Drinking During the Holidays

The holidays are just around the corner, and with them comes an abundance of celebration, connection, and indulgence. It can be easy to let routines slip and to “live it up” a little more than usual. However, excessive alcohol use—even for a short period—can have a significant impact on both physical and emotional well-being.

From the perspective of narrative therapy, I often invite people to examine the story they tell themselves about drinking. Does alcohol represent freedom, relaxation, or belonging? Or does it become a character in the story that steals clarity, calm, and connection? When we pause and mindfully reflect, we gain the ability to rewrite that story from a place of agency and self-compassion.

Below are some ways alcohol can affect the body and mind, and why moderation can be a powerful act of self-care during the holiday season.

Brain Fog

Alcohol disrupts communication pathways in the brain, interfering with clarity, focus, and coordination. It can also influence emotional regulation, leading to mood fluctuations and increased stress. Through mindfulness and CBT principles, I encourage individuals to notice how their thoughts and moods shift after drinking and to consider healthier ways to restore balance, such as grounding exercises or mindful breathing.

Heart Health

Excessive drinking places stress on the cardiovascular system, potentially leading to irregular heartbeats, high blood pressure, and even stroke. These effects may occur after long-term use or after a single occasion of heavy drinking. From a positive psychology standpoint, focusing on behaviors that strengthen the heart—such as movement, laughter, and gratitude—can be a way to celebrate vitality rather than strain it.

Cancer Risk

Research from the National Cancer Institute has shown a strong link between alcohol use and cancers of the esophagus, liver, breast, and colon. While that information may feel daunting, awareness creates the foundation for change. Narrative therapy reminds us that knowing the risks allows us to author a different chapter—one that honors our body’s resilience and our capacity to choose health.

Weakened Immunity

Excessive alcohol use can suppress the immune system, increasing vulnerability to illness. Chronic drinkers are more likely to develop infections such as pneumonia. By reducing alcohol intake and practicing mindful self-care—such as rest, hydration, and emotional regulation—we strengthen both our physical defenses and our inner equilibrium.

Moving Forward with Intention

If you enjoy participating in holiday festivities, I encourage you to do so with awareness and moderation. Reflect on what the act of drinking represents in your personal story and how it aligns with your values. If you notice that your relationship with alcohol has begun to feel unbalanced, it may be time to set an intentional goal for the New Year—perhaps reducing frequency, limiting quantity, or replacing alcohol with nourishing rituals.

In therapy, I help clients explore these narratives through curiosity rather than judgment. Together, we can create new ways of relating to celebration, comfort, and connection that honor both mind and body. Your health and your story are worth protecting—and you have the power to write them differently.

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